Showed up to the office early, but didn’t have enough time to even start thinking about how I could do my job better. The tranquility unique to early morning lasted only for a minute, and it got busy as if it resumed from the last Friday.
I did my best. Yet, a colleague of mine acted like a prick as per usual. She said the mistake I made embarrassed her and led her to make another mistake, indicating all the mistake were to be attributed to me. What a cunt. Perhaps I should ask her someday what exactly she tries to do when she accuses me of something I have done. From my viewpoint, she only attempts to prove that she is superior to me by convincing that I should feel guilty about my own existence. What seems to underlie her motive is evidently low self-esteem and a view of the world where she barely perceives herself as an individual; in other words, it seems that she doesn’t feel like she holds a space to be amidst thousands of people and is afraid of someone arguing in the face that she doesn’t hold any space. As a result, she can’t help accusing someone nearby when they do something that could undermine their space. I think there is no fucking point in doing so, and it is quite harmful if such behaviour involves others over and over again. She would not stop doing so, however. All I can is just learn a way of psychologically dodging her words and show her that it wouldn’t work anymore.
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